sometimes.. life is so painful and confusing.. but i kept telling myself to search for the truth.. but then.. i hid in denial.. i am so angry at myself.. what i am.. im ashame of myself.. im so weak.. i hate that.. i hate being the arif i am.. i want the arif i used to be.. so bright and joyful.. now's that the foundation has crumbled to pieces..........................






















i need to start a new.. nvm..bye

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